SomehowI like the way things are. its like having sex buddies, you get the enjoyment, without the comittment. but of cause, things are plainly wrong [omg sex buddies.. i actually mentioned that...] and it has come to a stage where its super super bad. [and i thought it cant get any worse.. i was dead wrong]

Anyway chinese new year has blown pass. Another year, another 'celebration'. After going through it for like 10+ years, all the excitment just does'nt seem to be there anymore. No more looking forward to visit cousins, nor the anticipation of how much ang bao your gonna get. I got new year clothes first time since the past 3 years and somehow, the idea of buying new clothes just does'nt sit in anymore. Its just another chinese new year, what's the big deal?

Going to look for a job real soon. Dwindling cash supply has forced me out of my comfort zone. Not to forget the incurring cost of learning how to drive an automobile. And procastination really can kill. Im such an asshole. *Slap myself*

On lighter note, I watched finish this japanese drama called ' 1 litre of tears'. And believe, girls out there, you will really really weeep. I heard someone cried through the whole 11 episodes of it. Its nice for sure, I did not cried at all. Maybe I'm immuned to it already. Or maybe it just does'nt really relate well enough to me.

Hmmm... Telling people to watch a moppy drama ain't exactly what you would call as 'on a lighter note'. But heck. And darling Crystal, please, don't get me anything from Hong Kong. Ha. See I so nice, helping you save money.

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
不能用恨你却不住结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

歌手：杨丞琳 专辑：恶魔在身边片尾曲

theres so many things i wanna say
but yet it seems so hard.

some things seem so wrong, and yet its hard to stop.

like spendin the dae together
watching movie
sharing the same ice cream [1 cup 2 spoons]
and the close physical contact

im having second thoughts abt postin this up

but im not gonna care anymore.

ignorant and apathy.

she finally did it.

and im still mopping around undecided on wat to do.

maybe i have lower-than-average courage