alrite
shall have a more updates on my recent life.

24th dec. went to church for christmas eve dinner. then after dinner theres caroling where we go to a hdb block and sing at each floor. was quite fun. some of the occupants even let us in their house. saw lots of cute babies. after tat is time out where we play game tru out the nite. went to mount faber for christmas countdown. then after tat played some games and ate roti prata at someplace. went back to church onli to find the alarm was off. police and fireman came to check. quite dramatic. some of the church gers went gaga over the fireman in their uniform and wanted to take photos... -_-.

25th dec. had christmas service. hanged around in church. went compass point to eat lunch and ya. went home to sleep. played dota with church mates at nite. so tat ends another dae.

26th dec. trip to bintan. meet up with the 5 other church mates. took a ferry. apparently i don get sea sick easy. hehe. reached bintan in 2 hrs. place was countryside. non of the city smog. a bus came to get us to the resort which was pretty in the island. get into villa. stone around. first dae nuthing much other than unpack stuff and explore around. our villa was pretty far from lobby, but we can request free shuttle service. hehe. even tho its like 5 mins walk. lol.

27th dec. city tour. went to some of the city mall to shop. 2 shop in fact. got some t shirts and a pants myself. then after tat went to some scenery spot where we take photos. back at resort, stone around then eat dinner. played pool and table soccer then siing karaoke. church frens try to pair me up with this ger from another grp. was pretty irritating. but the ideas they gave are quite.. feasible. lol.

28th dec. went fishing! caught 3 in total. was totally just relaxing and do nuthing. i kinda like fishing. its so. slack. haha. lots of fun talking and chatting. then afternoon went to the beach to play games. volleyball and beach soccer. walked around the sea during low tide. the sea bed is so high tat we can walk all the way to the other island. when the tide comes in, even u walk like 200 m out, the water level onli reach ur waiste. u can see pple fishing out in the open. strolling along. very hip. we took a speed boat to the other island. but the guy pushed the boat pretty far out. speed boat was fun. hope it was faster. the island sand is cool. the waters are clear, but not crystal. just hang around pick seashells and back on the speed boat, back on the mainland, and back to resort. dinner then played taboo. i went to sleep early. think tat spoilt everyone mood. haha. but the bed is soooo nice and comfy...

29th dec. dae to come back to reality. morning we rent a cabby and drove around. i drove and made a 3-point turn. not bad eh. haha. damn fun to drive and speed like no one cares. then time to leave. we booked a bus to follow us around, did a bit more shopping. then went back to ferry, took another penguin. ate dinner at bedok and reached home at 7. left home at 8 15 went tpy to watch kong with vict. quite nice. tho bit draggy. haha. then reach home and sleep.

30th dec. nuthing to do. stayed at home the whole dae to slack.

apparently one of my church mate is in band, and she from plmgs. so tat makes her conductor same as my vs one. coincidence.

the stars ARE beautiful in bintan.

i met tat church mate in tpy while watching kong. not really met. i saw her but she dint know tat i was there.
more coincidence.

bintan doesnt sell bikinis apparently. so sorry gers. nuthing for ur.

i hope the rest of the daes are more exciting. i wan to end the year with a bang. or as my ns fren put it. a gang bang.

will post photos of the bintan trip soon. hmm. when i get them.

ok.
a quik update b4 i go off for church..

thursdae went klunch with my army frenz. i cant really sing chinese songs. and the english songs are f up. so basically, a waste of my money. the onli song enjoyable was shin songs had a blast screaming like no one buisness. after tat went shopping with them. found a shirt which i really like but was damn so expensive. seems like i will never have luck with shirt. hah. then after tat just went home and chill

fridae afternoon went out with my section mates in vjc. nice to see them, juniors and all. one of the year 1 junior tot tat im his junior as he never seen me b4 and i looked extremely young. i donnoe if i shuld feel flattered or insulted. haha. weird.
ate fish and co. translate to fish and chips. then we went shopping AGAin. cuz my junior wan to buy gift for his gf so we went mall crawling. end up in this ulu ulu shop somewhere which i cant remember. but the bags there are nice. after which went to another junior house to play majong. then nite after majong met with some of my church frens to go watch narnia at 12 am. so we went to his house to play ps 2 till the time is there. head to bishan for narnia. movie was fantastic. tho i would have read the book before watching it. anyway it was a blast. then i walked home from bishan.

todae church overnite for christmas. then tomolo got service. then mondae go bintan liao. so far the new year week maybe going MoS. then again, i might get tat shirt for it. hehe. oh well.

gtg.

I looked away
Then I looked back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today is the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

You're the only one
I'd be with 'til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything
Everything

I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
And I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
'Cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

avril lavigne - Fall to pieces.

i know this is an old song.
but it kinda grow on me.

saf super no welfare.

no year end bonus.
no care for man :(



oh well

tomolo last mount of the year!

YAY

and hopefully i can get my PS 2 by fridae!

fridae went clarke quay with some of the vj band pple.
ate at fish tales where the cheapest food cost around 20. then we wanted to go eski bar, but the age limit turn out to be 21, ended up in indochine instead. quite a nice and cosy place. great sofas. great company.

clarke quay at nite was beautiful. plus with the christmas lightings, its totally romantic. hmm. pretty nice place to just hang out.

so now im bak at home, bumming.

got some great activities lined up.

fri section outing
sat - sun church christmas stuff
mon - thurs bintan trip

then a 3 daes break and the new year!
yay
hehe

I WAN MY PS 2 NOW!

apparently one of my army fren is able to get source for spanish fly.

kinda feel like experimenting with it.

like, wat would happen if i pour the whole bottle in a swimming pool??

apparently a few drops in a drink is more than enuff to bring abt the required effect..

hmm.

maybe i shuld get one and try..

its been confirm tat im going to bintan from 26 - 29 tho i had no idea wat are the details.

went to make spects todae, was pleasently surprised tat my left eye pupil is a bit larger than my right one?
weird

but anyway, the lady tat test my eyesight was pretty hot. aint complaining. haha

im prolly going overseas on 26 to 29
then agian, its onli a possibility for so far, my leave haven been settled yet, and the details of the hols, like where im gonna go for instance, isent finalise...

and its kinda pissing me off tat my ps 2 is still not done.

for off daes for dec

dec 2 -4 (fri - sun)
dec 6 (mon)
dec 10 - 11 (sat - sun)
dec 14 (wed)
dec18 (sun)
dec22 - 1 jan well.. hopefully. cuz im clearing leaves on these daes. so yar if it get approved..

i cant lament enuff abt my missing ps2. the guy tat suppose to fix it up went mia. all my phone calls went unanswered..

i realised tat the most sexiest kind of gers are those that wear t shirts with jacket and jeans. not those bikini clad skinny ladies. call me weird or anything. its just wat i like. hehe.

i.need.something.to.take.my.mind.off.her....

shot pistol todae.
wat a waste. got 43/50
2 more shots and i would have nailed an extra dae off..

oh wellz.

anyway.

went to watch harry just now. wat a pity tat it isent hermione and the globet of fire.
emma watson is simply gorgeous! like so totally HOT! argh. im soo mesmerised. hehe..

went out with a couple of ladies todae. watched oliver twist. surprised surprised. it was better than i expected.

b4 i met them, i spent half a min debating if i shuld wear something more than my usual too-casual-for-most dressing. but then i decided wtf. who cares. the first moment i meet them, my dressing got slammed. too bad for them.

woe to me. for i have no idea wat became of my ps2.

life is damn bored

i Wan MY PS 2 NOW.

nuthing to blog abt.

other then my lack of life.

which is really nuthing to blog abt.

alrite.

going out on thurs. watching a movie dun still don noe wat. haven watch harry, i mean hemione and the globet of fire yet. shall try to outsource pple to go watch with me. alrite

my ps2 is stunned till donnoe where.
hope can get it by fri then can play

argh.

if extra can kill, 3 pple would have died in my section and 6 would be the total casualty so far with some dying serveral times over. Its like final destination. where no matter where u are, wat u do, u will always end with with extra somehow. I manage to aviod the first one, and todae i siamed the second one. wonder how long can i last. pretty exciting... like survivor series like tat. onli with more pitas.

and i actually forgot to put up my off daes!

well here goes for this month starting from todae!

16 - wed
20 - sun
24 - thu
26 - sat [taken up by range :( ]
28 - mon

yep tats all
like so few off daes. sianz.

well.. dec would be more free. so meet up pple! im bored.

apparently the highlight of the dae is whereby we go canteen to eat dessert to as to gawk at OLs having lunch there. like how much more deprived can we get. it also speak abt the lifeless kind of activities there. oh welluz. im jsut joining in the fun, not really despo or anything. and its quite hilarious when we deliberatly shift table to get a better view point. haha

and sexy as she was, biting tat spoon.

alrite, life has pretty much come to a stand still. im still not sure if im having 1 year 10 mth of ns or 2 years.

iriitating.

plus tomolo not full strength again. more hours, less rest.

its such a pain when i cant remember wat i wan to blog...

oh welluz.

to those who donnoe
i broke my spec
so im using the thich thic black frame.

thinking of going contact lenses. hmm.. its a possibility

boring nuthing to do, so much for attempting to stay over at sinyee hostel this weekend. apparently no one can make it.

and i realise tat i cant teach physic properly or good enuff.. think i shuld just stick to maths... easier. haha.

boring dae.

like wats new, more pple kana ko in camp. more blood drawn. seems like war is brewing.

watch sky high. knda weird show.

alrite. shall post more when i feel like it.

found some pretty cool webbies
maybe u guys would wan to check it out.

zen garden

and something for those who wanna get into PMS.

it seems weird tat time in camp passes faster than home.. of cuz not to mention tat i can read comic during duty... and of cuz i watch dreamcatcher and white chick. and of cuz not mentioning that i thumbed tru x men on ps 2.

so it has been an enjoyable holidae duty i suppose.

hmm
suppose to blog something. cant remember..

anyway, so happy to talk to ting mei on msn! yay! shall be meeting her after her As. haha.. and i wan to meet some on the juniors after their exams. Min rui if ur reading this, ur one of them! oh.. and both of them want to take up SAF scholarship.. yikes...

watched doom todae.
typical action flick. the onli nice part is FPS game view. haha onli tat is cool. somehow the plot totally reminds me of resident evil... so its kinda lame.. hmm...

harry potter anyone? hah.

hmm

got my deathnote 4! yay.
haha, shall read tomolo during my mounting.. sad...

anyway...

anyone heard abt the topworld travel agency fraud thingy? well, my fren got cheated. so drama. the way he describe. haha. gonna talk to case and make the agency pay him back. haha. wonder if its lucky or unlucky for him. i think win 4D also not so zun.

hmm took 105 home. and wow. the first natural gas bus? hmm.. kinda stink. and the roof is strangely higher than normal... maybe they store the gas up there? or extra storage? and the bus move horrendously sloooooooow.... noooo i wan FASt bus... not slOw...

wanna watch Harry Potter!

actually, i wanna watch hermione granger.. haha so freaking HOT can u believe it?

oh nuthing more to say.
too tired.
recently on irc rampage. harvest a few msn to add in my unknown section. hehe. shall go find more yay.

another boring dae.

so pissed with my comp
stupid virus/spyware.

plus, the spyware is from anti virus softwares companies, making u to buy their products so tat they can remove the spyware/viruses they planted inside ur com!

like how ridiculars it is la.

urgh

stupid stupid spywarez.

and its gonna be another boring dae. which i think its such a waste. cant be help, everyone is having exams... but shuld be meeting them up after their exams so things shuld be less boring by then, i hope.

shall make new comp, like during dec.

and im short of cash.
argh. somemore with the certain movie outing on fri, im gonna be set back by another 20. and i think im gonna spend 25 on comic b4 my next pay dae. woe is me. no money. gers like car and money so gers don like me.


anyway, nuthing much to say, cuz theres nuthing to sae.

repeat after me.
ah-pi-ta-as

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=apitas

tat cute cute guy is such apitas. onli 2 daes he made 4 pple sign astra.

loser

alrite
oct is drawing to a close and thus, my off daes for nov! yay

1 - mon
4-6 fir - sun
8 - tues
12 - 13 sat - sun
16 - wed
20 - sun
24 - thur
26 - sat
28 - mon

30 daes i got 12 daes off
wah why so little :(

im thrown with the possibility of working in the pass office.

wat does this means?

on the good side : totally 8-5. literally. well.. latest end at 6. but msot prob 5
no stay in AT ALL
get to keep ALL MY WEEKENDS
not to mention ALL PUBLIC HOLs
no more STANDing under the SUn.
No more clearing rubbish or watsoeva.
yar.

the bad side : Got to work with a blarddy bitch
and a grp of weird pple.
will miss my section n all the nonsense.

actually i rejected the offer to go pass office. i rather stay in my own section. but oh wellz. see how la, if its not a choice i guess so be it then.

i had more reasons to believe tat designer for new balance is a pervert as well...

i mean, who in the world would put a shiny silver like thing on the tip of the shoe?????

i rather have a mirror tho.. and a larger one.

death note book 3 is apparently missing from major comic shops, like comic connex, and tian di..
like wth, i cant find it in popular either.

anyway life been pretty cool. tho boring as hell.

ARgh

i guess i may have to resort to playing D2 all over again. arghhh

*flips* *toss* *turns* *stabs my own ass*

argh.. the boredooommmm.

its hopeless...

im jsut too lazy to get a debit card. hur hur. oh wellz

anyway nothing much happen, most prob gonna go run later. then maybe go out dinner with my section yay.

bored bored bored

and nothing i can do abt it

i still don understand how gers can shop 3 hrs straight without rest when i almost cant take standing for 2 hrs. argh.
weird.

on more trival stuffs.

i have every reasons to believe that the contractors in my camp are actually perverse. They installed a metal plate to palce over a grilled drain to prevent high heels from catching onto the metal grills. wat they dint count on was tat the drain was actually just after the gate where people would stream pass and where we have to position ourself to check the incoming people passes. and wat the people din count on was tat the metal plate was actually shiny. vrey shiny. infact, its almost like a mirror if not for the anti-slip design on it. so basically, the whole time, when a high-heel walker with low-skirt decide to enter or exit the place, well,.. someone would be looking down.

by the way, tats the onli entrance and exit. so i was looking down most of the time.

the new batch of pple have arrived and cant wait to slice and dice them. YOU ARE OUR SHEEP. MUAH HAHAHA.

apparently sleeping for 7 hrs yesterdae doesn seem to remove the sleep debt. so i woke up, doing duty with a half wake up head. ended up greeting a man as mdm.

and salute to the 8m long lorry driver for successfully driving in and out of camp without banging any barriers or watsoeva.

dragonshard required a min of 512 mb ram and recommended 1 gb ram. which is pretty gay to me. AOE 3 is out, and maybe might get. Dirge of Cerebus is out soon too, hope vict will get it. basically, im just looking for games to play.

tomolo mounting. day after off. shall get my lazy ass down to centre again to make my debit card. did i mentioned tat i went to the bank last time at 4:35 to find out tat it actually closes at 4:30? wat rubbish. lucky bank pple, short working hours, more pay.

Life is still pretty much of pitas.

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and 1 more thing, when chatting with me on msn, turn off stupid animatio. those blinking question marks and penguin with shaking heads is driving me nuts.

if not, don blame me for ignoring u.

on some trival stuffs.

began reading deathnote.
and yes its damn psycotic.
and i guess the psycoticness get to u when u have like less than 1 hr of sleep?

had a great talked. moment of truth hit me yet again, its best to remain single.

grogy head, and double vision at the moment

met a cool col when i was unclamping his car. wasnt bossy at all. even offered to send me down :)

the pleasure of any doing any activites lies not in the activity itself, but who are the participants. im sure ur rather wallow in the mud with best buddies than share the same bowl of sharkfin with ur nemesis...

most decisions are not black or white. sometime, its just best to choose the more obvious answer and put ur faith in Him.
of cuz wat eva happened, u shuld not regret wat u decided, for the other option might turn out worse.

having less than 1 hors of sleep is indeed making me typing all this nonsense.

and it aint right to wear long sleeve with a jacket over in singapore.

full metal panic TSR is coming close to a close with the release of ep 12, the second last ep of the season ... :(

naruto still suc big time. GET TO THE MAIN STORY ALREADY.

gonna watch mononoke hime... everyone go watch, its nice.

and stupid deborah doodle on my arm. theres no need for u to declare ur fatness on my arm.

alrite tats abt it i guess... yawnz

gers dont like guys
they like cars and money.

this was further proven during my duty when i was directing traffic into the camp.

at some tiny corner, a 7 seater car was parked there for quite a while.
as parking was a no-no, i made my way there to confront whoeva was there, embracing myself either for the tidal waves of vulgarities or massive amount of excuses, both of which i detest.

to my horror, it was actually a cutesy lady with her child.

upon further more interrogation, she parked her vehicle there and stated that she was waiting for the arrival of her husband.
she did all tat with a cutesy whiny voice that fit her face.
i gave her 5 mins to stay, she decided to not take the chance of getting booked and drove away.

only to return back 2 min later.

i walked up to her, and she said ' oh my husband is coming already. Ah there he is!.'

i looked around, expecting to see some suave guy.
but no suave guy was in sight.
a big sized guy, not eaxctly fat, but so-not suave walked to the car, and thats when i backed off and when back to my duty post.

heck, im even more convince tat gers don like guys.

gee, so much for me overflowing with bishieness...

more angsty post.
yay


tat happens when ur thrown in a gate all by urself for 1 1/2 hours. u start to think, and u think too much.

so it happened tat my thoughts wandered to my uni studies few years later, and was toying with the idea of maybe taking up aeronautic engineering when i realised tat i don have any concrete plan of wat to do after ns.

tats wat to do during uni.

im still am pretty interested in aeronautics. but im afraid tat i cant deal with it. like maybe im to stupid to do well in it? i have this forebrooding tat i will flunk my uni studies no matter wat path i take. since tats gonna be the ulitmate out come, it doesn really matter wat i took rite?

of cuz getting results of mine for A levels would cuz pple to ridicule me and insist tat im actually over worrying myself to death.

but my uneasiness abt the future is not totally unfounded.

lets do a background study. note tat all examples are all nuthing but facts.

i came from neighbourhood pri school, so i manage to get some modest marks for my psle, like 244 or 242 cant really remember.
the top ger then got 250+++, ad went to anderson.
the next ranking one got 249 i think and went to st nicks
the next one went to cat high
then tats me i guess who went to vs.

so yar, i was like top 5 in school. but its aint any biggie

then o levels i got 10 points, which in everyone opinion is average, tho some pple may argue tat its quite insane to get 10 points, but when ur surrounded by pple who keep smooching into 6 points like a walk in the park, 10 points is actually not tat great.
tho i din manage to know wat my p fren got for o levels, i found out tat another ger got 10 points but she ain in the mention top 5. the top ger went to sjc. the second ger went nyjc. [or is it the opposite?] the guy went sajc and i landed up in vjc due to the fact tat i was smart enuff to join band.

then came a levels and yada i got my score, the top ger in my p school got bcc i think the rest not so sure.

tats when the moment of truth hit me.

wat happened to them? its like whoops, i made a bg fall. Its quite impossible cuz i remember them being smarter and more hardworking than me. unless they got themselves in a complicated bgr problem, i guess nailing 4 As shuldn be a problem for them.

so another moment of truth hit me. so far my good results must be from God. [for qh & cry ->yar go some corner and laugh abt it]. there had to be no other way. it seems surreal tat i even made it this far.

life is weird.
and another fact, i was in the last class for primary 1, last class for sec 1 and last class for jc [not tat it really count, but its still pretty cool i think :) ] so it shows tat there were like the rest of the school tat could be better than me?

i still remembered tat in jc 1, like after first 2 or 3 weeks of school, mr chow said to me 'i expect u to get A for physic'. im like, weird. so yar i did get it in the end, but the journey wasnt easy, i manage to secure a last place in class for a test during my jc 2! wow.

so now im worried abt my uni. life been too smooth sailing for me, i doubt i be able to take a rough current, let alone a storm.

God bless me.

life's a bitch.

it get worse when u know u cant do anything about it.

note to self:
i shall try not to live past 60 years old.

and its time i embrace the life of a loner.

u know, i believe its abt time tat Singapore shuld aquire some atomic weapons and make do with NS.

i mean, come on, Singapore is so small, the result of a war with any country is pretty obvious rite?

and a good defence is one tat screams out 'mess with me, u will pay more than u gain.'

nukes seem to fit the bill.

imagine the scenario, big fat country A decide to declare war on Singapore. Singapore respond with 101 atomic bombs fall on big fat country A. And yay, no more big fat country A! with 101 atomic bombs, i think there might not be earth anymore!

so lets join the atomic race! US has it, North Korea has it, Russia has it, and its abt time that Singapore has it too!

by not packing my bag i tot i need not go for army.

wat a fool.

but for once, i hope tomolo never comes.
i hated army.
for its idocricity tat they impose on us.
the hypocritical in charge.
the backstabbing fellow men.

i wna go back to a world where politics doesn matter.

or as far as im concern, places where politics doesn affect me.

time passes so slow, i wonder if i ever will be out of army.
every week just look forward to off dae
but the daes off were nothing meaningful to me.
daes spent idling awae at home.

meaning to life? cant seem to find any.
everyone seems pretty busy with something.
its pretty sad when pple forget abt u.
or when pple decide tat hey, its a friendship worth sacrificing for some other stuffs.

but im glad i made friends who appreciate my very existence.
tho frens don last foreva, but i guess, the experience tat we shared is good enuff.

sometimes its not abt holding on.
but letting go and moving on.

thanks to all my frens who made a great difference in my life.
not to worry, ur not forgotten by me.
somedae, i'll call u :)

x5
Ma-ia-hii
Ma-ia-huu
Ma-ia-hoo
Ma-ia-haa
Alo, Salut, sunt eu, un haiduc,
Si te rog, iubirea mea, primeste fericirea.
Alo, alo, sunt eu Picasso,
Ti-am dat beep, si sunt voinic,
Dar sa stii nu-ti cer nimic.

Vrei sa pleci dar nu ma, nu ma iei,
Nu ma, nu ma iei, nu ma, nu ma, nu ma iei.
Chipul tau si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tai.

Vrei sa pleci dar nu ma, nu ma iei,
Nu ma, nu ma iei, nu ma, nu ma, nu ma iei.
Chipul tau si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tai.

Te sun, sa-ti spun, ce simt acum,
Alo, iubirea mea, sunt eu, fericirea.
Alo, alo, sunt iarasi eu, Picasso,
Ti-am dat beep, si sunt voinic,
Dar sa stii nu-ti cer nimic.

Vrei sa pleci dar nu ma, nu ma iei,
Nu ma, nu ma iei, nu ma, nu ma, nu ma iei.
Chipul tau si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tai.

Vrei sa pleci dar nu ma, nu ma iei,
Nu ma, nu ma iei, nu ma, nu ma, nu ma iei.
Chipul tau si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tai.

x4
Ma-ia-hii
Ma-ia-huu
Ma-ia-hoo
Ma-ia-haa

Vrei sa pleci dar nu ma, nu ma iei,
Nu ma, nu ma iei, nu ma, nu ma, nu ma iei.
Chipul tau si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tai.

Vrei sa pleci dar nu ma, nu ma iei,
Nu ma, nu ma iei, nu ma, nu ma, nu ma iei.
Chipul tau si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tai.

Dragostea Din Tei - OZONE

finally finished GTO.
pretty nice and cool.
heart warming i guess, but too bad, it aint belong to me. it be cool to have such a teacher tho :)

the past week has been same old. ssdd.

and the regulars are coming up with something sinister up their sleeves.

we suffer, they enjoy.
we can peanuts allowance, they get more pay.
we 0 say, what they say is the absolute truth.

oh wellz. llst
army is pitas man.

on lighter note, went out with cry at nite, ate some cheap food, then went all the way to raffles to drink coffee... come to think of it, its pretty lame. haha.. oh well, it was time well spent tho.

church tomolo, army dae after tomolo, and dae off dae dae after tomolo. yay.

2 bishie 4 u!
yay!

http://www.deviantart.com/view/22451106/

blogger still screwed
wonder when they ever get it fixed
running out of stuffs to talk abt, especially its pretty pointless to rant since ranting would do no help at all.

hmm.

wat a boring dae

tomolo gonna be a looong dae.

im surpised by how army can get more retarded given the state its already in
and blogger is still screwed up.

argh.

boredom strikes.

'the past is the past. no matter how wonderful it is, u can never live in the past.'

yikes blogger is screwed

anyway october is here! and the list of my offs :)

oct 1 (sat)
3 (mon)
7-9 (fri - sun)
11 (tue)
15-16 (sat - sun)
19 (wed)
23 (sun)
27 (thus)
29 (sat)
31 (mon)

a total of 13 dae offs. out of 31 daes.

apparently some strange senior had been 'watching over me' since i was in my new place from dae 1 onwards.

apparently the reason for being so is we happen to be in the same sec school.

weird

not tat it really matters.

but its just so... weird


now i know how do stalked gers feel like. yikes...

anyway my senior taught me lots of things!

the infamous 3-steps to counter flasher : Pull left, Twist right, Pull twist centre :)

and another 3 steps for ur to figure it out: roll it up, pull it down, stick it in.

lolz.

gonna gone.

decided tat i take my leave during the last week of dec
hah. the hols seasons.

anyone up for a bit of overseas trip?

i think i decided to get ds instead
haha
see got any nice game first.

ff7 been pretty cool.

tho its still like the very beginning.

but i decide to play with open guide book. haha its actually more fun to play tat way!

life is soo boring tat im driven to play FF7.

and im sooo tempted to get a GBA. grrr..

hopefully vict can lend me his then i no need buy :)
haha

been havin frequent bouts of chest pain.
wonder if its anything serious. hmm.

anyway watched night watch. qutie a hip movie. pretty interesting. and the subtitles rox.
alrite.
apparently dvd for advent children is abt $75? hmm.

maybe i'll buy, when im feeling richer hah.

watched advent children

other then the shortfall of being too short, it was cool.
fighting scenes totally awesome.
babes totally awesome with the correct bust in parts.

some things missing would be a more focus fightscene from the rest of the gang. bascially cat sith was the most useless...

anyway shant spoil for those who haven watch.

i shall install FF7 and play yet again.

oh aeries totall took my breathe awae! gotta get the dvd version!
and maybe the hp :)

wheee.

all is back to normal!

yay!
finally endured the tough times, survivor is over!

wheeeee....

im beginning my usual normal mount tomolo
thus
its time to give my dae off for the month!

13 - tues
17-18 - sat-sun
21 - wed
25 - sun
29 - thurs

so tats it 6 more daes off for the remaining 3 weeks.

had a debate few daes ago with a guy.

the debate was is it worth it to overwork ur life for the future?

he was arguing for it, im against it.

basically his working 23 hrs a dae and 7 daes a week just to save money for the future. with i have no idea wat for.

and im sayin tat amt of afford aint worth it.

so basically i got bombarded with the usual how money is important and one must plan for the future and sort of thing.

he dint get my point tho.

“That by thinking anxiously about the future,
they forget the present,
such that they live in neither
the present nor the future.”

"That they live as if they will never die,
and die as though they had never lived.”

live everydae of ur life as tho its the last dae.
tat ain the code to a successful life.
tat the code to live ur life to the fullest.

unless u consider earning bunch of money which u cannot bring into the grave as sort of living life to the fullest then i got nuthing to sae.

finally
piece of good news.

all agony ends at mondae!

wheee.

looking forward to it! haha but will be mounting

tues got dismount tho :)

i never felt so alone b4.
wonder why.

anyway, im considering of applying for a debit card.

anyone has any good suggestion?

in blink of an eye another weekend gone just like tat..

how i wish this period of ns can just move on faster.

argh.
pretty much alone.

2 more daes down. 15 more to go.

tough times ahead.

it seems to never end.

17 daes more to go

watched the maid todae.
still the same boring scaring tactics. its more of shock than fear. anyway at least there is plot hah.

argh

times are getting worse.

wonder how will i survive tru army.

wat a sucky week!
feel like dying.

19 more daes to go.

ARGH.

SOMEBODY SAVE ME! im dying!

this site was back up due to the fact tat i have something to rant abt.

alas, another senior kana chicken pox.
facing the drastic change of details due to man down, everyone was sad, and we all anticipated the news of 14 hrs detail for the next 2 weeks or so. however, someone dropped a bomb on us, those who never get chicken pox will be seived out from each section and combiend together to be quarentined. lots of bull shit.
basically this new section of 9 men will do duty tat is of isolated nature, which equals to more APs (sentry) , patrols and post office.

the oxymoron occurs...

we are isolated from the rest in fear of spreading the chicken pox to the rest of the platoon, BUT we are allowed to spread to the pple changing passes. wow.
other pple still have to come to the pass office to sing in their arms, thus, they are in one time, exposed to 4 pple who are believed to carry germs, so much for trying to keep them awae.
by putting 9 pple who never had chicken pox before together is like having a time bomb. when one got chicken pox, the rest die.

plus, instead of dismounting i had to countinue with 6 hrs of duty the coming dae.
and the most nonsense of it all, they gave us sooo much post, tat we generally had MORE hours of duties and anyone else.

and this is gonna last 21 daes.

military intelligence. oxymorons.

so im pissed and totally unhappy with the new ararngement. why shuld pple who already had chicken pox be wary of pple who never had chicken pox before? dont u get immuned if u had it already? the person to isolate is the one who already is having chicken pox now! and his already at home for 2 weeks! the next person to isolate is the one who never had chicken pox before but the closest contact to the guy suffering from chicken pox now which is me! cz i came from same section!

ITS SO SIMPLE.

but they just have to shuffle everything, make a big mess, and yar, basically major screw up.

its soo like survivor. reshuffle the clans, put a new one together, and lets see if they can survive for 21 daes.

something wrong with this post. it aint suppose to turn out this way.

life been pretty weird.

boring.

monotonus.

nuthing worth mentioning.

heck, i may even decide to delete this blog.

theres nuthing for me to write, nuthing for pple to see, and no one is seeing it anyway.

wah
thanks to someone who came down with chicken pox, we got like historical moment of 8 hrs standby detail.

tomolo theres gonna be a 12 hrs mounting detail.

which kinda kill my holidae mood. Argh

sianz sianz sianz.

argh..

oh, hope vict pass his driving test tomolo. then can go watch mid nite shows! yay haha

just came back from mind games cafe.
really cool place, nice games to play too hehe.. the nicest being im the boss.. totall psyco games.

if ur dont know wat im talking abt, its a board games cafe! super hip and super cosy!

argh..

anyone wanna go with me? haha its really cool! i promise!

[if u think bridge is psyco enuff, u aint seen nuthing]

bumming bumming bumming at home...
nuthing to do siaz...

wat a boring dae.........

its been 8 months in the army already.
hmm.. not fast also not slow.
but army been pretty cool experience..
but i had enuff of army... now waiting for ord... am will be waiting for quite a long while.....

waiting for pay too then i can by the drama serial i been eyeing for soo long.. i hope its nice, cuz like never show in tv yet. hmm but the actors like all pretty good. shall see how.. hmmm

going for sin bdae bash later..

now much to sae..

just tat gunbound is still pretty lame... but ok lah, since i playing with my army frens. my alternate ego..

life been pretty mundane.
not tat im complaining.

wah
salt plus ulcer = thousand year of pain..
sianz..

hope it works and hope tat it gets better tomolo

hmm.
mouth is pain.

argh.

wat to do. hope it gets better tomolo..
hope its gone by sat haha.. BBQ lehhh... hmm..

oh well, just normal ranting of boredom.

am just gonna pack my pack, drink water, apply cream for ulcer then im gonna sleep.

yep.

argh.
my tongue got ulcer.
and my teeth hurts when i chew!

this is sooo irritating. argh.

cant.eat.nor.speak.properly.

Argh...
it felt wrong!
im actually starting to play gunbound!

tats so utterly lame!

there are no friends in the world tat will last beyond 10 years.

I hope it aint true.

training will never be the same.
and so is life.

i have always been a shadow,
surreal yet never fades.
Unnoticed by day,
disappears at night.
Thats what i am,
and thats what i'll ever be.

alrite, im full steam ahead to finally complete learning the basic of guitars even tho i started like when im sec 3? kinda lame and stupid rite? haha.. now got time and got guitar so yep. tho i need a person to teach, hmm.. self taught from interent do have its flaws.. haha. shall see how.

least i got some kind of life out here now...

i feel so loserish.

oh well.

since july is gonna end, i shall post the list of dates which im free for the next coming month!

4 - thurs
6- sat
8,9 - mon,tues
12,13,14 - fri - sun
16 - tues
21 - sun
24 - wed
28 - sun

total offs = 12 total working daes = 19. hmm kinda suck even with the national hols. oh well...

hmm, 1 more week and july is over.
anyway kinda boing and low life i lead now.
which is driving me nuts...

i need some excitement...

maybe like getting a gf, then have some break up probs, then try to solve, then rinse and repeat...

tat would be kinda cool..

hah.. just babbling

alrite, suppose to have kite flying todae, but we just ended up bumming around in suntec cuz of rain. nuthing much happened, just the usual hanging out and enjoying each other company. which is cool i guess.

argh......

i need life. even tho life is pain, pain makes u feel alive... hah...

i feel so stupid again.

really regretted not doing it. ARgh...

sianz. now im left with onli 1 option... grr.. doubt that there will be any chance, perhaps i shuld just give it up...

alrite pple.
time really flies when ur enjoying urself and slow to a halt when ur doing guard duty..
in a blink of an eye 3 daes off just sort of disappeared...

anyway, to those tearing their hair out on wat to buy for my bdae present, i have kindly decided to make a list of wants tat would release u of the agony of thinking wat to get.. so here it is!

1)Oxygen
2)Nitrogen
3)Carbon Dioxide
4)Argon
5)Neon
6)A bag filled with nothing (and yar, im not keeping the bag)

so there u go!

anyway from parkour i have derived a new branch call mallour.
parkour is basically sleek movement out in the park whereas mallour is sleek and fast fluid movement in the malls. now some might think tat a mall environment has totally nothing to play around with. i mean, what obstacles are there in the malls other than the few benches that scattered around the malls? well, u need a weekend, coupled with school holidaes and maybe throw in the great singapore sale for good measure and whoola! u get a mall FULL OF MOVING OBSTACLES! how cool is tat? u totally need skills and technique to walk from 1 end to the other in the shortest time! u need to be agile to dodge, sharp eyes to see incoming, and a wholesome amount of luck to be lucky.. haha

so there u go, mallour. practice it while shopping for my stuffs, yar?
enjoy.

had capt ball todae

wat a roll over, basically we got thrashed hmm..
but it wasnt so bad, get to make some frens.

its kinda weird when pple keep saying good job or well played when we are trailing 10 points.. i wonder if his trying to convince himself..

well, never had any hope for the competition.

but i still love capt ball.

tired tired

after capt ball still go some strange place to eat prata and maggie goreng. super nice! haha.
so shiok :)

yes
i got another 6 pm standby todae.
and im really getting pretty pissed...
considering i got 7pm the standby before, and another 6pm the standby before before.
pissed pissed pissed. plus is had ippt todae which was totally so extra. apparently my seniors are trying to fight for dae offs. hope tat there will be dae offs if not i also sianz.

it really have a bad impact on me. i need to do something constructive. like learning jap? learn guitar?. or wateva.
kinda lots of possibilites here, BUT ... NO MONEY!

aRgH.

enuff of ranting.

now must settle something.

im getting tired.
im really am.

the monotonus life of counting down the first hour onli to do the same for the next is taking its toll on me. it doesn help when pple get on my edge with act smart replies.

basically im tired of pple giving me nonsense and lame shit attitude problem.

i have decided to ignore these pple to spare me my pain agony.
thus if u call/sms me and i dont answer/reply, it means ur on ignore. dont even bug me why ur on ignore, i'll unignore u when i feel like it.

which means never.

so there. feeling better but im still angst. if u dont know who u are, then good, if u wan to contact me, dont bother. im having a tough life here, dont make things even more difficult for me.

alrite i have said my piece. life sux, army sux, so does everything else...

to whom it may concern:

patch

kinda weird why i bother writing when i know no one is bothering to read..

am suppose to rant abt something...
but i cant really remember.

hmm...

Broken, this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you, so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

Yellowcard - My Ony One.

yes theres a sudden increase of yellowcard lyrics here.. but they are nice song which i wanna share :) haha.

todae is eating spree..
met up with the gers and we ate, pizza, lasange, tiramisu, some strange italian ice cream, some stir fried udon. i nearly wanted to buy fried bean curd and tori Q but due to lack of funds... haha...

yep its been pretty fun. tho its just a simple hang out. too bad they starting school soon. but theres gonna be a kite flying outing! ha. looking forward. since theres nuthing much happening in my life rite now.. :(

Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down as I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes you forget where the heart is

Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening now
Can't you see, something's missing?
You forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday, if ever you love me, you'd say it's okay

Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life, what's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me
And how broken my heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday, if ever you love me, you'd say it's okay

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder, the more that you know
When you get lonely, if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday, if ever you love me, you'd say its okay
It's okay

Yellowcard - Empty Apartment
It's okay

yay looking forward to thursdae.
its gers outing + me.
HAH.

anyway, think i probably gonna end up in dog course. hm. not sure if i really wan to go. but shall see how lah.
yay.

thursdae come faster!

army politics can be so scary.

but i aint giving a damn abt it. as long as they dont drag me into their fight, they can declare war for all i care.
least i got a nice section where pple do help each other out.
i so totally despise pple who try to act important.
then again, dont touch me and i wont bite.

on lighter note, my work is getting more and more monotonous.... 1 senior downgraded to pes e due to back problem, but since his ording soon, so they gonna keep him.. another may downgrade to pes c. but he may be reposted out somewhere... hmm... if being downgraded can enable me to join band i wont mind, cuz my place to so totally dry and boring! SSDD over and over! gah.

PPLE ASK ME OUT ON MY OFF DAES SO TAT I GOT SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO!
thank u very much....

went to watch war of the world with vict.
quite an interesting show. tho the ending was kinda abrupt. to think tat the common flu is so powerful.
anyway if ur looking for massive warfare and great battle, ur looking in the wrong place. the perspective is more on a family trying to survive. thus u wont get to see these kind of stuffs as the family is avoiding those places haha...

anyway, june is gonna end soon! thus my free daes for july would be as follow:-

3 (sun)
7 (thu)
9 (sat)
11 (mon)
15 - 17 (fri - sun)
19 (tue)
23 - 24 (sat - sun)
27 (wed)
31 (sun)

total of 12 daes of in a month of 31 daes... hmm... tats quite alot? haha

The lights are out in the city tonight
So close your eyes, gaze up at the heavens
And see if you can point me out

If I could have one wish tonight
I'd wish upon a satellite
To bring me back to you
We spend our whole lives searching for
All the things we think we want
And never really knowing what we have

So many paths that we can take
To bring us to our destiny
Gaze up at the heavens
And see if you can point me out

If I could have one wish tonight
I'd wish upon a satellite
To bring me back to you
We spend our whole lives searching for
All the things we think we want
And never really knowing what we have

Be careful what you wish for
These stars are fading out.

the ataris - the night that the light went out in nyc

went church, had capt ball todae..

finally some sport! i think im gonna get pretty fat with like 3 weeks of draught of excercise. haha seems like i getting pretty lazy, but its ok! todae had a great work out! too bad i cant go for overnite cycling... hmmm.. kinda sad, but its alrite. wat comes round goes around.. or so i hope.

anyway, any gers interested to play? cuz we need more gers to form teams to play competitively ... it will be fun! hah.

hope to do more excercise real soon. miss jumping abt.

hmm...

my place picked up a dog.
very cute. very very cute...

apparently the owner tied him to concertina wires.. so its sort of, abadoned...
very very sad dog tho... it wont even wag its tail for the first 2 daes when we found him.. now got sign of happiness.. but his eyes... has those tat seem to come from really bad experience. everyone says his dying. but his sooo cute! will take pic of him coming sat. hehe. then may post here..

damn the owner.

vic and me share many similarities..

being hopeless in love just happened to be one of them.

anyway its getting kind of drag in duty now.
totally nuthing to do but talk cock and waste time.

GAH.

i had the aching to go learn violin!!!!

but im poor and no money :(

sponser someone? hah

i would like to add that im getting fatter! cuz lack of excercise! damn. so spastic. plus my brain is dying! ARGH. revive my brain someone? im starting to talk incoherently.

not tat i talked coherently to begin with. hah.

tomolo another 24 hrs mount. im going crazy........................

feel like slapping someone!

ARGH...

someone just must have ALL THE GOOD LIFE...
idiot idiot.. just plain idiot..

im so in love with yellowcard...
not exactly yellowcard per se.

im just so totally in love with the violin!

sweet sweet violin....

nothing can top gift and curses....

well... maybe vindicated.... haha...

im still sooo in love with haribo mega sour roulette !

ah...

Control Centre ( CC ) : Intruder alert. Someone just entered the restricted zone. 003, 006, 007 take down target!
003: roger
006: aye
007: moving in

003: i see target. its the mothership of the humanitary empire!
006: oh no. we have to take it down by all means.
007: im moving in on to target. provide support as needed.

CC: take down target at all cost!

007: yes sir. landed on target. permission to deploy itchy spikes.
CC: granted. kill the ******* ship
007: itchy spike deploying.... ARGH!
CC: wat happened? respond 007! respond!
007: ... ...
003: oh no, target just released scratch missile on 007! his been hit and taken down!
CC: damned! 003 006 move in now and show no mercy!
003: hard to move in, target is deploying slapping carpet bomb to protect himself. we cant locate a suitable landing site.
CC: pull back pull back. retreat for the moment...
006: no way, not after wat he did to 007. im moving in.... ... ... ... ARGH!
003: 006! are u all right? oh no... 006 been hit by carpet bomb and his missing a few wings!
CC: that ****** evacuate him out of there! NOW!
003: yes sir! moving him out...

10 mins later

CC: we lost 007, but at least 006 was rescued. its now up to u 003 to take down target. proceed with caution!
003: moving in.. landed on target and preforming itchy spike.... itchy spike successful! ARGH!
CC: 003! u there? wat happened?
003: yar still alive.. he tried to missile me.. just got away barely...
CC: thank goodness, continue spiking tat *******!
003: target seems to be moving awae. His retreating! His out of the restricted zone!
CC: alrite. good job 003. objective acheived. u can come back now. another victory for the mosquitoes replubic of biting.

just another dae at side gate...

had hcc todae
which was totally cool..
the afternoon part anyway...

morning got this stupid sky ladder.. so super tiring. and its not really tat high.. but it jsut kick ur strength away...

the afternoon part is where the fun really begin...

got to climb those 2 rope obstacle, one at top and one at bottom. not cool?
plus its like 6 floor up. no cool enuff?
u have to do it across a great water body! like 50m across! still not cool?
how abt letting go right in the middle?

there u have it.. cool rated 10/10.

next we have flying fox! across the same 50m wide water body! now. tat is sooo way cool...

after checking out my tracker, realised someone entered here with safpu blog at google...
wonder whether is it intentional or not.. since so many pple blog abt safpu..

then again.. it may be sibe trying to watch over us...

hmm..
seems like i gota be careful of wat i say...

think im gonna upgrade my internet service provider.. considering they giving awae free ipod shuffler...

nothing great.. but hey, ITS FREE...

had a roaring good dae...

went to watch star wars this afternoon with vic. not really tat nice. kinda lame. plot a bit not together. so yar.. just sort of watching it cuz everyone else is... haha..

then watched mr ans mrs smith... now tats a really good movie! its not really wow factor, but still for $7, worth it.. totally. damn nice, funny. one would assume it to be some action flick movie, but nah.. its furnie alrite... haha

oh well.. running a headach for lack of slepe.. gtg sleep soon...

today was pretty lame..
i stayed in camp...
from 7 - 7
and i only had like 4.5 hrs of duty?

tats so weird..
and waste of time..
sheesh...

saf...

i was in the car, when suddenly a wild thunderstorm came and throw me right out of the car and into the wilderness..
i landed up ina place remotely and strangly familar like the scence in cast away, just minus the waters. feeling sand under my foot, i built a wooden shelter. wait a min, i FOUND a wooden shelter. seems like im not the first to be washed up here. i checked out the wooden rundown and found lots of writings in the small crampy place. its so small u cant even stretch out ur legs properly. writings were of strange langauge like 'ord in 060606' some random numbers i suppose. thus, i began my life of loneliness. much like the sceen in cast away, i made a friend.. literally... well not exactly i made it.. ok fine i borrowed it. its a RADIO! how happy i was! to listen to jamie yeo voice was a blessing! thus i stick my beret up the roof hoping someoe would notice and rescue me, listen to jamie yeo crapping away, and stare off into the jungle. somehow, i was sort of expecting a t-rex to suddenly pounch on me.. much like jurassic park...

maybe i can start off my own movie... jurassic park 4: casted away.

back from another duty.

apparently this place has no fridae to look forward to...
netiher does it have mondae blues..

oh well, u cant have the best of everything...

haven watched stars wars yet.. argh... still waiting...

anyway, i decided to post up days which i will be free since my schedule is now kinda, irregularly fixed.. hehe..

June
9 - thurs
11 - sat
13 - mon
17 - 19 fri - sun
21 - tues
25 - 26 sat - sun
29 - wed

yep. 11 daes off for this month...

altho it takes effort to maintain friendship, im kinda getting tired of being the one tat actually does something abt it...

boredom strikes..
its making me desperate. well quite.
need entertainment!
long lasting entertainment....

tomolo standby, as the name suggest, standby will mean standing for 8 hrs..
argh.
hope my leg dont die...

cpa is crappy hard, and stressful... but pretty fun. just goto keep my cool, take my time, look around....

back from mounting.
pretty ok. so far.. have no done anything seriously tiring yet. hah...

apparently so far 2 pple have disagreed with my opinion. not gonna rebuke anymore. getting pretty lame.
deciding if i should change course this year or next.. having mixed feelings...

life is weird.
cant really understand wats really going on.. sometimes u cant have the best in everything.. but i wounded up in a kinda good platoon which kinda nice seniors. but then again.. onli time will tell... already pple are saying tat its a good place.. but i guess i have to really see it for myself.. which is tomolo night. sigh, tomolo start duty. so soon! for the rest of my 1 year +++++ im gonna be stuck with mount dismount stand by training... its kinda driving me nuts! hmm.. not tat im complaining, others are getting worse shit considering they have to stay in. hmm.. oh well... lets see wat happens next.... keeping my fingers crossed........

i realise its pretty hard to get someone out when her bf is someone u know.
cuz tat usually mean tat she will get her bf, then u wll be ddp...
feel kinda lame and stupid.. how well....
shall see how things go...

dont worry, u dint upset me. was just thinking tru, tat is all.

but then again, wont u be tired if u keep protecting urself from frens just becuz they may hurt u? its not a matter of pouring ur heart out but opening it.

idealy, i would wan a fren where i can be truthful to and that theres this zenith level of trust and faith. but realistically, thats quite impossible. but then again, i dont need perfectness in everything, i just wan the effort to strive for perfectness.

i hope i myself can be a true fren to someone too. tats all tat really matters.

i realise im kinda naive..
not tat tats bad.. but it isent good either..

anyway, kinda realised tat there is no close fren close enuff to know 100% abt u. maybe 50%, or better 60%... i guess even 70% is kinda hard..
why am i harping on it?
hmm..
well i used to think that between closest of frends, there shuld be this certain level or transparency between them... but obviously this is not true as even closest of frends know not of ur darkest secret... its kinda filtered membrane where ur frens onli know things which they need to know.. as they say in army. need to know basis...
i makes me kinda sad, that theres no one in the world where ur comfortable enuff to bare ur hearts out... i guess even btw bgr, or married couples there is no such thing as 'there shall be no secret btw us'. then wats the point of having frens/gerfrends/boyfrens/husbands/wives when u cant even trust them?

well, i guess i shant step into their mistakes...

went band concert yesterdae.

was pretty ok. but playing can be improved hmm..
horns still kinda bad.
ensemble first 2 kinda lame, cuz the instrument combination was like weird?
anyway the last one was good.. asraf singing was furnie.

el cam was ok, but sounded weak at slow parts..
pirates was pretty horrible. no strings. kinda empty.
best piece was encore.
tat pretty sums it all up...

then after concert went out with horn section pple to see the 3 gers bitching awae.. haha.. they are soo totally lame and furnie and they keep harping on how they are gonna be the one with the uni hottest guy no. 1 ... so lame... (btw if ur wondering who they are, nah...)

had been a long and crazy week..
pop this week, so now officially a mp. not really a big deal or fuss to make abt.. mp is just another vocation. posted to gombak, tho i really wanted to go zpc instead. especially since i can continue my tkd. so i was quite sad... anyway wats done is done...

anyway i dont like gombak.. tat pretty sums it all up.

book out on fri. just wack game.

sat nothing much. morning stayed at home to play game till like around 6 which i left for section dinner at fish and co. was damn lame and furnie, especially how LKY actually has the balls to 1)sing in front of the whole place 2) request to take photo with a good looking waitress.. haha.. was pretty lame and we jsut talk cock.. damn nice to have them around cuz they always joke and talk cock.

sun went church then met qh cry and her bf to get a present for qh fren. was pretty fun also cuz get to walk around and talk more cock. ended up in cartel where we sat for 3 hrs getting qh to turn up for the cycling event. hah. enjoyable tho expensive! argh..

mon went cycling.. dint start out early cuz we waited for vic, thats it for whole dae. got to climb spider web. then we all went home at around 4+. poor cry have to go home alone cuz qh and jeri bike home. hah.

todae book in gombak, horrible place. just there to do saikang and listen to talk in afternoon.. super slack. got pple play ps 2 there somemore.. hmm.. tomolo starting with the actuall ojt so wont be tat slack. sigh.. but least its 8-5. todae reached home earliest. hah. cuz book out at 5 reach home at 6. lolz. power.. tot i could book out at 16 59. but the door was lock... so by the time it was open its 1700... sad...

i give up giving up...

anyway got posted to gombak.
which kinda make me miss all the instructors in safpu..
they all are really nice. especiall the staffs and warrants.
unlike my new place.
which kinda stinks.

no point complaining.
im stuck there...

looks like its gonna be pretty boring army life.
i rather be guardroom. more boring but at least im still in safpu...
i miss safpu. already...

i give up.

this has been one of the worse week ever i had in NS.

sorry if i snapped at anyone.
but then agian, im not really repentent about it.

not gonna elaborate much, but just tat
1) horrendously tiring week. after 2 daes 1 night outfield, we had rest of the weeks filled up with stores and drills and tat kinda suck.

2) lots of things happened during the short 2 daes and 1 night and something occurred killed my mood totally.

3) worried abt posting results, especially after seeing f-up pple going better places.

4) politics. major politics going on. and i totally hate tat. (talk abt peer apprasial)

5) and im disappointed with myself.

all in all, im pissed, tired, worn out, edgy, angsty, irritated, irked, disturbed, mentally and emotionally unbalance and im SICK AND TIRED of pleasing pple.

dont bother asking me wats these all abt.
it will just get me more pissed.


on lighter note, i got guild war! and its pretty cool... so far.. hope to play lots and lots of it in the future... keep my fingers cross.. hah...

ok.
this week has pretty much be in a blur.
excercise almost everydae. hah. so was tiring week. horrendously tiring.

after seeing how blogs can get sued i fear saf is tracking this as well.. i better know wat i post. hah.

anyway tomorrow is excercise hell. gonna play war for 2 daes. hmm.. hope i survive. cuz its gonna be pretty shag. hah. after the first 3 daes then honeymoon liaoz!

i really really wish i end up some where 8-5 .....

ok im thrown with an option. tats is to go brunei for a year and earn regular pay. im still considering. sounds pretty good, since i got rejected by ALL the scholarship this may prove to be the way out for me.. hmmm...

time really flies when ur jsut slacking and doing nuthing.
well so here i am blogging abt events of the past..

last week was a blitz. tho guard duty was a drag but full dae c&r, id location excercise and gpmg firing make the week seem short. haha

book out, went home rest. sat book back in to settle stores. then met up with cry to get win xp cd then just hang around. suppose to get something but in the end i gave up. then wound up in suntec in some rip off cafe and yar. basically. mall crawling.

then sun went church, do the usual stuffs. came home to rest. invited li over to stay overnite to watch movie. manage to watched league of extraordinaly gentlemen and a bit of lost in translation. tho the latter movie like kinda crap.

then todae do nuthing . went back school to hear the juniors play then went gelare in ECP to sit and talk crap. kinda relaxing and nice to have old frens together. wat a hard chance to get by...

gonna book in soon. take care peeps. its gonna be hell week.

i am DAMN PISSED.

todae been pretty boring.
just went beach road to buy army stuff and went simlim square to check out mp3 prices. apparently the ave cost for muvo n200 512 is around 190+ and 1 gb is over 280+.

but apparently its possible to get 512 for 150. or 1gb for under 200.. haha

if tats possible i confirm buy liao

then after simlim just literally hang around at bugis mrt sit there and stone. not tat i did it alone but some crazy ger just like to sit there. but i was too tired to move or even suggest to move. hah.

then went home stone and rest.
suppose to buy somethings but i forgot! yikes. the shops must have closed... argh...
hmm nuthing much to sae

gotto pack soon, guard tomolo yikes.
sianz i HATE guardz.

i hope i dont get posted out to do guards.. tat would be sooo utterly dumb

im soooo lazy to go buy food......
maybe i'll ask my buddy to buy for me :)

alrite, there and back again.

been 5 long daes.. pretty done a lot. had C&R like a lot. taken part in 7 man cell fight. just another door opener. haha.. then had lots of machine gunning. haha. its either rambo is very strong or its just hollywood fakee. haha.

sustained qutie a lot of injuries this week. hope next week would be better... anyway i be spending 7 daes in camp! cuz sundae got guard then all the way till sat! argh.. like.. wth.. sianz.

anyway i better enjoy the guarding... sianz.. even tho it sorta sux.

had one of the most interesting dae for the past year.

went to pick qh up in sk then got him to tpy. then we walked into mac, to his surprise/shock/horror, we have reserved mac bdae party for him! haha.. it was super hilarious and furnie as we play kiddo games and just pretending to be kids again. hah. then we got these toys from happy meals and whole bunch of balloons. qh got this pillow thingy which i tot was not bad.. hmm..

we sang bdae song, extremely loudy, took lots of photos with the spastic mac cap on. and yar. thoroughly enjoyed ours.. haha.. 19 years old kid celebrating bdae, mac style. haha. then got listen to kiddo songs like ba ba black sheep over the radio. haha... damn furnie.. i think the conducting staff also very surprised. haha..

then msot of them came over my house, bashing tru majong, cards and computer. nice to hang out and talk with old frens then eat dinner with them before going back home with victor. haha. pretty happening.

anyway, happy bdae QH!

argh

had one of the toughest week.

mondae starting already 5k run. shag to the max. run like shet.
tuesdae got c&r. the break fall and inward rotation can really die man. fall till arm pain leg pain everywhere also pain.
wed break . whole dae lecture. cant remember on wat tho.
thurs c&r again. not as bad as tues. but still very tiring. we learnt 3 man team. which apparently onli mp learn. then got learn how to build pw cage and tentage. which also very shag cuz have to run around in sbo.
fri, walk in the park. literally. around mandai road. with sbo. walk from 9 to 5. can really die. not a road march per se but its navigation then got up hill and down hill. very very very irritating. argh.

tomolo got 5k run in east coast park. at least its otot. haha. so not to worried jsut go and enjoy and treat it as another run in vjc. hmm maybe i might visit vj for a while.. see how.
have to go sleep soon.

argh. stupid comp rs on me. no idea why keep auto restarting. guess i may have to reformat my comp soon. argh.

booking in soon..
in like another half hour..

todae quite slack.
went suntec with couple of pple then walk around play a bit of arcade and just practically laze around. then reached homw by 5 then relax till now which i have to prepare to book in :(

tomolo got 5 click run. wish me luck.

wheeezeeee...

Life been pretty interesting.

Highlight of the week.

Pistol live range. get to shoot pistol! damn shiok. haha but the thing is, the targets are all manual mode. meaning, after 10 shots, i have to run like 25 m, take out the target board, hook a new one, run back, count holes, and tape up the holes for it to be reuse... all in all... pretty lame. haha.

dint manage to get best shot.. wasnt even close, think i lag behind like 4 shots or something. the guy got 47/50, i think i go 42/50. [yes i know tats 5 shots difference, but who cares]

Get to see real ninja van in action. haha super cool.
bascially the rest is just lectures and more lectures.. pretty boring... next week have navigation then got excercise where we roam around the jungle.. with 16 pple.. plus sect com... BORING!

well.. cant complain much. sigh.

now i really hope i end up in sib. hmm.. zpc shuld be ok.

todae morning when breakfast with victor, cuz have to get some form which i need to be printed for the teaching scholarship. then talk a lot of crap. then i went home, slack, decided to do up my blog since someone was slacking but gave it up as it looked horrible. then went out with charlie leema to novena square to eat bk. haha.. then walk around, end up in united square. walk around somemore. jsut chit chat and plan our conspiracy on how to overthrow an evil king. hah. then after that end up home. so tats abt it.

New site

yes this will be the new site.
reason for the major shifting and watsoeva wont be explain.