all right, long time no blog. since im waiting for my download to complete for the walking dead, i shall take this time to update some stuffs.

things are going on a downhill for me. in probably quite a lot of aspect in my life. work has been not going too well. i am still managing somewhat, but i am not hitting at the right tempo. is it the demands are higher? or is it that my best can only bring myself that far? i am not too sure.. did i really put in my 100%? probably not. apparently in some situation, not all things allows you to have the maximum result with the minimum efforts. but then again, with efforts, there might not be results after all. which is more to say, disappointing the least. does that mean that i will stop trying? let see how things goes. if i don't get promoted, that might be the signal for me to move on. but move on to what? i have no idea.

love is somewhat on the edge. its like a roller coaster, not only that it comes with ups and downs, it also comes very fast. and truth be told, i quite hate that feeling. that all the effort to bring it up only have it come crashing down right towards the end. in all honesty, i had done that i can. now all i can do is to let things move 1 day at time and see what may come. the lack of sense of security is infuriating. the lack of control is rendering me insane. perhaps in some sense, i had allowed certain things to happen. that haunts me. and that wears me down.  like that said, once bitten twice shy eh..

so now things are not so rosy. im a bit more affected than that in the past. need to learn and to put my trust and faith in the unmoving one. so as a reminder, in case i see this again, all things may fail and people may betray me.. but i have complete hope and complete faith in His hands and plans for me.

had been doing some exercise. nothing to the extreme. just want to gain back some fitness so that i can clear my ippt. was tasked to answer a charge simply cause their system screwed up my bookings. now i have half the mind to sue them for wastage of time and perhaps criminal intimidation? the officer in the room wasn't exactly very friendly to me.


been thinking of taking up a new sport. it just so happens that one of the CC in TPY does conduct the sport that i'm looking for. perhaps one of these days i shall go down and give it a try, seems like the first lesson is free anyway. this could probably be one of the more exciting thing to do in my life.

and in a final note, i be burning $. as usual. air-con slated to purchase in december. and a new wallet. and a new phone. and im still thinking on that new piece of pc for gaming. and i got no money already. sigh.

woe is me. hope all goes well. like the saying go.. 东家不打，打西家！