sometimes im quite amazed at the things i do. for the simple reason that most of the things that i chose to do simply are irrational and illogical.

For example today,

woke up with a sore throat and bad flu. Dripping whole day. Yet, i insisted on going church to settle some accounts stuff. The journey there was horrible. Doing the actual account was still ok. But after the accounts, things get worse. Headache sets in. Feels bit giddy and light headed. Was deciding if i should stayed on for cell. Friend told me to go home, GF told me to stay. So i stayed, went to Macs at anchorvale CC. Grabbed a burger, and i took a nap there till 6. Woke up, still feel quite dizzy. Walked back to church to wait for cell to start. And finally cell started after anguish waiting. Had the impulse to cab home on 208502370225th occasions. But decided against it. Cell leader offered a ride home. I declined. He sent me to compass point with the rest. And i endured the journey home. Took a quick shower.

Now im waiting for someone's sms reply. But somehow feel that she is too busy enjoying her supper. maybe she forgot that im sick. its been half an hour since my reply to her. [apparently she said tat she did not receive my last sms to her.]

I would want to feel cared for in my sickness. Just an sms to show care and concern would be nice enough.

Still feeling horrible. hoepfully, things will be better tomorrow. hopefully.